Crazy Sexy Diet day 3-5

Today is day 6 

sorry I haven't posted I have a few pictures that I have taken over the last few days but nothing spectacular... salads all start to look the same don't they? and my iPhone camera made a few of them sort of blurry. I mixed up my salads and bought a few different varieties of Organic Girl Salad mixes-- the one I am working through this week is the 50/50 mix and as always it is highly made out of Kale, which is seriously one of my favorites and I have never even made it as a "chip" I like it plain just the way it is.

I am drinking my green juices and I am liking them, a lot more than I thought I was going to like them! They even have a sweet-ish taste after awhile.. I guess it is the cucumber?

One thing that I did do different on day 3 I added black beans to my quinoa.. and something else I found interesting is that I have a hard time even eating dinner because I am so full from lunch and the snack, i guess it is all the fiber.

Yoga is going good.. I love yoga. I remember taking a yoga class about two years ago and the instructor told me I had the flexibility of a 13 year old, guess she was impressed that someone as big as I was could move like that. I am also enjoying the meditation but again it was old hat but with everything going on lately it has been very peaceful to actually make a date with myself to do it daily where before I was doing it sometimes but not daily.

This is lunch today.. and a sweet potato that I won't photo because who hasn't seen that before? and if you haven't keep scrolling because I took a photo on day 1 or 2..

today's salad is snap peas, kale, mushrooms and red peppers and tahini dressing.. I LOVE the tahini dressing.


Recently I was told about vegan cheese.... IF I do decide to become 100% vegan after this (which I doubt because I miss shrimp and grilled chicken sandwiches and turkey burgers...) I have been a clean eater for so long that I really don't think I would be into the vegan replacement products... I would rather have the organic, grass fed, free range, no antibiotic having meat than to have something that has been processed the hell out of and includes texturizing gums... like xanthan.. I mean.. WHAT is that?? Aside from that I actually adhere to the old-fashioned eating style of meat in moderation (aside from red meat that I just find disgusting.. yuck it is all bloody... AND if it makes your bowls and pots and pans all slimy and coated with junk.. don't you think it is doing that to your insides too?) and the use of eggs and milk.. I guess I am old fashioned and I have yet to find the biblical calling to vegan-ism... but who knows.. we will see what unfolds with my detox. 

I probably won't post again today but I will post tomorrow and update you all on how it is going, right now I have to read my baby boy some books.. I love our snuggle time while the older boys read to themselves... I love being a mother, it is truly everything I ever thought it would be even if I am having to do it alone, they bring me so much joy and I am so proud of who they are becoming.. I am hoping that I get this school stuff done soon and get everything to where I need it to be financially because I really want another child and I would like it to be before I turn 35. I still have all my hormone levels checked and I do ovulate most of the time so that is a really, really good thing to me! 

Crazy Sexy Diet day 2

Another green juice bites the dust! I am loving the green juices! Make juice not War is yummy! I never thought I would say it but Kris Carr delivers a juice I can get into. Then came lunch.. I had miso soup and another big salad.. I need to show a picture of the size of this bowl.. it is large compared to a regular sized bowl and I always eat the salad before I touch the other stuff. 

 I also did some more food prepping and filled up the stuff I have been using and separated the leftover quinoa into smaller bowls for easier reheating.

For dinner I had the leftover sweet potato and this yummy salad. 

Day 2 went well too! I am starting to... use the bathroom a bit more.. TMI I am sure but it IS a detox so... I guess that is what I am supposed to be doing. Today was a bit harder because I wasn't focused on "I am detoxing" and I had to remind myself not to nibble off the kids plates. I am remembering to do my detox baths and the dry brushing and the nightly yoga... but again I had a foot up on that because that has been a part of my normal routine for years now-- I started dry brushing and daily yoga in middle school.

Crazy Sexy Diet Day 1

Day 1 

 Breakfast--- It went... slowly.. I milked it.. I was a big baby and literally only "sucking it up" like I said I was going to. It really wasn't that bad... my subsequent juices have been much better than the smoothie.. just couldn't learn to love the texture. Luckily I made enough to last me until after noon which is what the detox recommends.

Then came lunch... I have never been so ready for lunch! I had a small sweet potato, roasted and plain. I also had a yummy salad! I love salad and I am loving experimenting with different amounts of different veggies to give it variety. I actually am a huge salad lover, it was even a pregnancy craving with my middle son-- and he still loves salad. I was so full from the salad that I saved some of the potato for later. 

 Smack! I had my first actual green juice of the detox and some approved crackers and I mixed up some homemade pico, some guacamole, and some garlic hummus.. I LOVE this mixture. I have mixed the pico and hummus together but this is the first time I have ever thrown in the guacamole. If you have never done it.. then you should!

 Dinner! A big salad and a small portion of quinoa and broccoli.. I made this in bulk too so I will be eating more of this.. I may add some more veggies and stuff to give it variety as well. Again the salad had me so full that I couldn't even finish the quinoa.

Today was easy.. almost too easy.. I wasn't expecting any headaches or anything though because I am fully free of caffeine and have been for a long time now, at least 4 months and probably more.. I am also pretty much free of dairy and gluten and animal products with the exception of some shrimp and salmon and I like turkey sausage in the morning. This vegan thing is easy!

Apple Cider Vinegar and a nice bum bum

It has been almost a month and I am really loving the ACV shots.. I feel better and my stomach has not had any issues at all.. it is nice. I have even noticed that my skin is healthier looking.. I haven't weighed or measured myself so I am not sure if it made any difference there but really that wasn't the point so I am not too worried about it. I will be weighing and measuring myself tomorrow morning though because I am FINALLY going to start (and complete)  the Crazy Sexy Cleanse! *** I couldn't help myself and went and weighed anyway.. I lost 10 lbs***

I went grocery shopping today and got out spending roughly $300 and that will last about two weeks.. I am nervous about sticking with the green juices.. I have had them before and didn't like them all that much. I am going to suck it up though because I didn't like the ACV the first few times and I still took it anyway, in fact I can think of at least a few things that I didn't like the taste of initially and then it grew on me.

I finished one round of the Brazil Butt Lift and now I am going in for round 2... a different program this time. I got plenty of compliments during the first 30 days so I figured why not go another round. I am nixing the off days and added Yoga Booty Ballet and Crunchless Abs. I am still doing my sprinting work and doing one long run a week.. but to be honest it isn't much of a long run, I will get there though it isn't like I want to be a marathon runner.

for a year now...

For a year now I have sat on the book Crazy Sexy Diet I have applied its principals for the most part but never did the 21 day detox.. so I am going to start it.. tomorrow. I already cut out all coffee products which was the one vice I had remaining.. I can now officially say that all I drink now are water and green smoothies and occasionally some hot teas-- mostly ginger when I have an upset tummy. Today I find myself staring at the hot cup of Apple Cider Vinegar, Braggs of course, mixed with 1tbsp local, raw, organic honey-- its my first time.. I was actually thinking about just taking it as a shot but I didn't have a shot glass, side effect of not being a drinker I guess. I could have just placed it in a regular glass but-- I didn't want a lot of time to pass between throwing my head back and actually drinking the stuff.

My son just walked in and took a look at my drink and said, "ewww what is that? It smells yucky."
awesome.. I am really looking forward to it now.

heck no.. it was gross!! so I just dumped it and took the tbsp straight from the spoon.. it is still gross though.. I better have some freaking good skin and see my belly issues be corrected.. because that was NASTY! my mouth still hates me for it.

My workouts these days are consisting of a squat challenge, the Brazil Butt Lift (I love my butt.. seriously I have the best butt) and a Couch to 5K program and daily yoga. I love my yoga practice it is the most calming part of my day and really helps me to get to sleep.

I finished my semester, not as strong as I would have hoped but I did make a 93 on my science final and got out of the class with a high B. I was happy about that because science is not my favorite class. Even though the semester is over I still have a lot to do though because I got behind in a class and have an INC in it.. so I still have that.. but.. I am already starting to enjoy my summer by reading some for fun books.. right now I am reading Boundaries in Dating; I love the boundaries books and I wish that I would have had this book when I was 15. I definitely plan on having the boys read it and do a bible study with it when they are a little older.. I will probably do it at 13 though because kids these days are NOT made like they were when I was a kid. Already I have had little girls call my phone asking to talk to the boys :/ humph.. and my youngest actually thinks he HAS a girlfriend.. and he kissed a girl! Even my older to boys got on to him about that.. the oldest told him that kissing is only for when you are in love. I like that he thinks that and hope that hormones don't try to convince him otherwise. My biggest regret in life is the way my relationships played out, the last two anyway. The next book I want to read is Safe People. My only question is.. where are these guys? I have made it my goal to start dating soon.. maybe in the fall because right now it is summer time and I am looking forward to lazy days with my boys, a road trip and days spent in the pool.

I am having a lot of "ah ha" moments while reading this book. I have had so many of those moments in the last 5 years and in the last 3 especially. I have been truly, truly blessed to have let go of everyone in the past and formed new friendships and a new future. If it wasn't for the scars and the kids I wouldn't even know that that past even existed  I am proud of the work that I have put in and yet aware of how much more there is to do. I look back on it all and seriously wonder what I was thinking.. I know that so much of it was from the constant stress, the fear of the abuse and of the addict in general, and then throw in some kids and postpartum.. and viola a serious recipe for disaster. But I learned more about what I don't want in a person and in a relationship from that one person than I learned in all the many others that I have dated along the way.

Fitness Goals.. revisited...

Since my last post... 

a million years ago.. 

I did do most of the fitness goals I set... I can't bench 200lbs (who knew it would be THAT hard?) I can curl almost 60lbs.. I LOVE the freaking squat rack and can seriously squat like nobodies business! I can swim a mile nonstop too! And I love the squat press.. and the leg extension machine.. but mostly I still just love the squat rack.. I am pretty proud of my my progress but there is much room for improvement.

I haven't done my body fat percentage yet.. but I did have some metabolic testing done and that was good; I was scared that I wasn't going to do so well considering all the years of having bulimarexia. I had a stress test and a pulmonary test done.. They told me I have the lungs of a 20 year old and my heart was awesome :) I also tested positive for a gluten allergy so we have to do more testing for that. 

I think that I would have succeeded in all of my goals if I hadn't gotten sick and lost my job too.. both things that caused a spiral.. but I have been worse off.. this is no different and I always come out of the ashes.. much like the phoenix.

I signed up for next semesters classes and am excited that I will be a 2014 graduate if all goes well!! This summer my big personal goal is to study for my LSAT, which I am hoping to take in October.