2012

Well here we are.

A new year

Filled with the promise of things to come.

Open for anything.

I am really excited to start this new year.

It seems that the last decade of my life has been one of so much change and three years ago.. wow.. almost 4 actually... my life turned a corner and slowly I climbed my way out of a deep dark hole that I had been in. It wasn't until this last year that I realized how far I have come and how proud of myself I am. Even if nobody noticed (they did) I noticed and my children noticed and that is all that really matters anyway. In this last year I not only graduated but I became a calmer person, I faced a disability with my son on my own, I walked away from the love of my life who was no good for us (harder then you think it will be even though it was such a terrible relationship), I let go of things that were holding me back, I have grown so much spiritually that I stopped having to look back and see that there were only one set of footprints because I felt his presence the WHOLE way through it and I finally felt free enough to allow myself to rest in his arms, I gained back my sense of positiveness AND most days I feel like I could maybe even *gasp* LOVE again. Every single day I wake up happy, I go to bed happy... really I don't even know where to begin.

I lived my life in FEAR for so long that I forgot what it was like to feel a glimpse of freedom.. I am not there yet.. but I am getting closer and closer and that brings me such a good feeling.

I hope that you are looking forward to continuing to read... I am looking forward to making this more of a habit.