Fitness Goals..

So here are my fitness goals.... 

Swim 1 mile, nonstop.. I will work on competing with myself for times later.. gotta reach this goal first.

Run 1 mile, nonstop.. without slowing down..

Dead-lift.. 300lbs

Bench Press.. 200 lbs

Curl... 60lbs (?)

Get to a body fat percentage of 15-20%... (then I will see if I need a breast lift and a tummy tuck)

I am hoping that I can reach my "goal" weight (with looseness of the word since I am more concerned with body fat) in the next 8 months.

Weight wise I am still in between a 50 and 60lb weight loss.. just got into another 10lb bracket.. I am sure there is a better term for that.. something more "polished" but the word is eluding me at the moment. I am not concerned about the stall since I had a few weeks of dental pain and then a short sickness and the dreaded final exams.. Also.. in that time I still lost inches and body fat so I am going to look at the scale not moving much as a non-factor. 

In other news... 

I was BEYOND ecstatic when the chick from faithful provisions AND Jamie Eason (fitness model) started FOLLOWING ME(!) on Pinterest!!! I know that is pretty lame but considering how awesome I think that they are... I am really HONORED that they followed me :)

We are loving the summer... popcorn and movies.. swimming all day.. football camps.. and of  course it is my time to be the only "teacher" in the kids lives and we love it and it leaves this giant pain in my heart about how much I had wanted to home-school my children.. I said I was going to in high school.. and it was always B and my plan... but.. I did get one good year and I still do a ton of stuff at home and have a home curriculum.. I am hoping that I will be done with school and have them homeschooling again soon though.. I could now if I got child support.. but I digress.. It is a dream that I had to let go of for now.. just like I had to postpone school as I worked and went part-time.. again.. I digress... Goodnight! if I don't stop writing and go to sleep I am not going to like that early alarm clock telling me that it is time to get my workout on.. I am thinking some yoga followed by HIIT on my treadmill.. and then some laps in the pool.

catching up

There is so much to say! I wish that I had been posting more along this journey but in the end, what does it really matter??

I mentioned last year about my newest obsession with all natural foods. It has been great! we made a complete crossover at the start of October and since then I have lost 50lbs! I wasn't even trying! I feel great. I still have about 30-40 left to lose but I think that I will lose that pretty easy.

I have really gotten into bodybuilding. Mostly what I do now is using my own body weight and some light weights, not exceeding 20lbs. I do P90X and think it is great.. I am pleased to find that I am keeping up with some of their numbers and I like that it is done in minutes rather than on a "magic number" that is supposed to make you over. I am also doing a lot of HIIT by doing sprints and then walks... at a pace of about 30/60.. I need to find my HRM and wear it again. I am doing yoga and I am doing good old fashioned stuff like sit-ups and jumping jacks. I also get out there on the giant trampoline and bounce around too--- that is where the real fun is.

It is really nice that people comment to me all the time about how great I look and even on some of the fitness related pages that I am on women have messaged me and said wonderful things and asked me questions and I was able to answer them and they have told me I should teach other women... it is very motivating. I am flattered. I am also confused because I still have so much weight to lose and I still feel so big.

The semester is coming to a close I didn't do as well as I had hoped but I am doing pretty good. Next semester will be better. I will come back refreshed and ready. I am taking the semester off and just going to hang out. We had a lot of yard work done this year and are getting a pool again, I am really excited about that. We are also having the land tilled and doing a garden. I am really excited about that! It will be great to teach the boys a good work ethic, keep them busy during the summer and also to show them to how food should be grown, it will make them appreciate it and want to enjoy the product of their efforts.

Guess that is it for now I have to go read a book for my criminal justice class... the premises is on rehabilitation of an inmate, I am anxious to see what it says. I went ahead and got out several books about the criminal justice system just for fun reading.. I really can't wait until summer.. just me, the kids, bible study, a garden, books... pure lazy R&R

2012

Well here we are.

A new year

Filled with the promise of things to come.

Open for anything.

I am really excited to start this new year.

It seems that the last decade of my life has been one of so much change and three years ago.. wow.. almost 4 actually... my life turned a corner and slowly I climbed my way out of a deep dark hole that I had been in. It wasn't until this last year that I realized how far I have come and how proud of myself I am. Even if nobody noticed (they did) I noticed and my children noticed and that is all that really matters anyway. In this last year I not only graduated but I became a calmer person, I faced a disability with my son on my own, I walked away from the love of my life who was no good for us (harder then you think it will be even though it was such a terrible relationship), I let go of things that were holding me back, I have grown so much spiritually that I stopped having to look back and see that there were only one set of footprints because I felt his presence the WHOLE way through it and I finally felt free enough to allow myself to rest in his arms, I gained back my sense of positiveness AND most days I feel like I could maybe even *gasp* LOVE again. Every single day I wake up happy, I go to bed happy... really I don't even know where to begin.

I lived my life in FEAR for so long that I forgot what it was like to feel a glimpse of freedom.. I am not there yet.. but I am getting closer and closer and that brings me such a good feeling.

I hope that you are looking forward to continuing to read... I am looking forward to making this more of a habit.